tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59082712011-04-21T13:37:17.165-05:00"Time to gather up the splinters, build a casket for my tears..." Shakycamhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11960660971023188149noreply@blogger.comBlogger301100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5908271.post-1099476797739498762004-11-03T04:09:00.000-06:002004-11-03T04:13:17.740-06:00

November 2, 2004 3:42AM CDT I have terrible insomnia. I woke up from a very bizarre nightmare about the Bush Junta pulling it off to see that they are pulling it off. I am incredibly depressed. Not nearly as depressed as I was when I heard about this whole “Moral Values” issue being the number one concern for voters and how Gay Marriage tops the list of concerns. Also how exit polls in eleven

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In Late March of 1996, one of the first truly warm days of that spring, I was doing a little cleaning and enjoying the breeze in my downstairs domain at mommy’s house, waiting for my friend Nick to pick me up and bring me to my second day at one of the worst jobs I ever had, as a fry cook at TGI Fridays. The phone rang, and gazing out the screen door at the melting snow, I answered it. I don’t

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I stole this from my friend Sarah's Blog. Thought it was a good idea. Nine Layers Get to know me better: LAYER ONE: -- Name: Aaron -- Birth date: June 30th -- Current Location: Lauderdale, MN -- Eye Color: Green -- Hair Color: Brown -- Height: 5' 10" -- Right or Left Handed: Right -- Zodiac Sign: Cancer LAYER TWO: -- Your heritage: Irish, Swedish, Norwegian -- The shoes you wore today: Brown

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Here it is August 11th and I feel like it should be Friday the thirteenth. I have officially had one of those absolutely monumentally wretched days. I had forgotten what they were like. I was on a pretty good streak there for awhile, I guess. It started early this morning after my invigorating home yoga session (I’ve been practicing yoga on the sly the past week and a half) and decided to wear a

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I just wanted to add one other New Year's Resolution that I didn't realize I was going to add until today. On top of travel, weight loss and the privilege of driving I want to add one more very important one. I want a fucking boyfriend!! Anyone who knows me is probably shocked right now. No more shocked than I am, believe me. I have gone years resting on my laurels and repeating the mantra "

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At the risk of sounding incredibly cliche, I am hoping to make some major changes this year. In the full spirit of that, I am on the South Beach Diet. Two days and counting. How is it? Well, I can't really describe it. I just feel weird. Supposedly, it's my body breaking the addiction to all the crap, but I feel just... wrong. This part only lasts a few days though, I heard. Here's hoping

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Okay, despite what I said in my last post, I am feverishly working on ANOTHER fan fiction piece. I'm a slave to the muse, I guess and apparently to Angel as well. After the warm reception I got from "Branded" and "Bonded" another idea flew right into my little old brain. This one involving Angel and someone new named Dale Arlington, Jr. The story is called "Requiem" and I intend it to be the

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Now, I'm an idiot. Thanks to my good friend srhansen I finally have it, but I have been publishing this blog without titles for a really long time. I thought srhansen was paying for hers and that's why hers, Terra Nomad, looked so much better than mine. Anyhow, just a quick note to let y'all know that two brand new stories will be posted here very soon. Tentatively titled "Brand" and its

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HERE'S A COPY OF THE LETTER I JUST SENT TO SAVAGE LOVE. I'VE WRITTEN HIM BEFORE AND NEVER GOTTEN PUBLISHED SO I DON'T HOLD OUT MUCH HOPE, BUT HERE IT IS!! This metrosexual stuff has to stop! It’s bad enough being a gay man and it being obvious who is gay and who is not through fashion-sense, grooming, etc without being a gay man who can’t tell the damned difference anymore. My gaydar is

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"Beyond the Cold" is up guys. Once again. Warnings, blah blah blah. Also, no italics. My computer is acting really funny and it won't let me highlight things with the mouse. Obviously, this isn't the Director's Cut of the story. Also, folks who aren't "Angel" fans won't know what the hell happens at the very, very end. Ask me if you really wanna know. Enjoy!!

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The stains won’t come out. I know that. Needless to say, you become an expert on blood stains when you’re a vampire. The sheets are ruined, but it seems as though this is some kind of crude therapy for the boy, trying to wash my sheets. And my clothes. I haven’t had such freshly-laundered and often-laundered clothes since Drusilla decided the four of us were royalty and needed servants

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A Quick Update Hey there. Just to let you know the official title of my new story is "Beyond the Cold", not "Stains of Time". It is in the very final approval stages with a few test readers. I will be unleashing it either tomorrow or over the weekend. Check back.

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"Movies and TV and "Stains", oh my..." I forgot to put a couple of movies on that 2003 list from one of my last posts. “Cabin Fever” is giddy, gruesome and so much fun. Not scary in the least; just gross and hilarious. I absolutely don’t want to ruin any of the big laughs, but I can just say stay through the credits. It’s damn worth it. “Thirteen” was also a very good movie.

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"Stains of Time" Status Update Still workin on it, guys. Still don't know if it is fit for public consumption. I'm working on a damned confounding part right now that makes me want to bang my head against a wall. The muse seems to have abandoned me lately. I'll keep ya updated. I want this one DONE, dammit. Want to move on but I have to see it through. Stay tuned.

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The Movies of 2003 (thus far) The Good, The Bad and the eeeewww Time for another rant, I guess. Partly because I’m bored and partly because I want to talk about movies. Being unemployed for the better part of 2003 allowed me to see quite a few; more than I should have in some cases. I saw just about every major Hollywood Summer Event movie and most of them were passable at best, downright

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New Story Soon!! Working title: "Stains of Time" Oh boy. This one's a doozy, guys. Very dark and disturbing. I think I may have taken the whole dominant vampire thing a bit too far in this one. Probably so disturbing because it is from Angelus' point of view. May have to think long and hard (so to speak) about whether or not I am ready to unleash this one on innocent people. It's a

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TV and the State of Super Dating Reality A rant by a. dean Taking a cue from my good friend Sarah, I have decided to post a few of my own thoughts about the state of television these days. Most people think that reality TV has raped and pillaged the scripted show, and I agree to a point. If there was one genre of movies I could absolutely and completely get rid of with the wave of a hand it

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“Buffy the Vampire Slayer” A rant Okay, I touched on this earlier in my blog, but prepare for my rant. Hold onto your asses. I now own 3 seasons of this amazing show and in total, have only seen the 4 seasons that are on DVD. A year from this coming December the entire seven season series will be available. I initially rented “Buffy” through Netflix because I just wanted to see what

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My Vampires Okay, I’ve recently written about other people’s take on vampires, obviously, to moderate success. However, my version of them has never meshed exactly with the version I have read anywhere. Since I have decided after the next and final visit to the Joss Whedon Buffy/Angel universe I am going to come up with characters of my own, I thought I would give you a preview of how I

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Just a few notes on the psychological subtext of "Elements of Destruction". You don't have to be a genius to figure them out, but here goes: WARNING: SPOILERS AHEAD. YOU MAY WANT TO READ THE STORY BEFORE YOU READ MY ARMCHAIR PSYCHOANALYSIS OF IT. "Elements of Destruction" The three elements of Xander's destruction are silence, darkness and flames, but the main thing destroying him and

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Okay my new story is up. Leaps and bounds beyond my last one, in my opinion. Same pairing, I know. Much darker and more demented and INFINITELY more violent. Weak stomach? Move on. Quite a goodly amount of humor mixed in with all the sadism, though. Really, it's worth a read. See the Sunnydale Cliff Notes below for the Buffy-Impaired, sad, sad, souls that you are. I swear, and this is a

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“As it is now and ever shall be...” by a. dean Running and hiding. Changing my name and my look. Leaving the past where it lay, forcing myself not to remember everyone back there. My family, my friends, everyone. Everyone I know that he has destroyed, in one way or another. And it was all my fault. I have a new past now. Jack Kingsley never lived in Sunnydale. Jack Kingsley is from

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EXCITING a. dean NEWS An All-New Story Coming soon... "As it is now and ever shall be..." by a. dean Another exciting and much nastier and darker take on the whole Xander/Angelus thing. Probably the last one unless that pesky Angelus Muse doesn't stop biting me. He is soo hard to say "No" to. Hee hee Stay tuned.

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Okay a few words about what comes below. To the untrained eye, you will find nothing but my first attempt at "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" Slash fan fiction featuring my favorite pairing Angelus/Xander. Look a little bit closer and you will see what ultimately became my salvation. This seemingly harmless piece of fiction was the first coherent story I had written in over 8 years of complete and

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Here are some Cliff Notes for the Buffy-impaired. Everything you need to understand the trilogy below is here. Cliff Notes Characters that have major speaking parts: Alexander Lavelle Harris (Xander): High school senior at this point. Sardonic member of the Scooby Gang. Always has a wise-crack. Encountered Angelus once before and has ALWAYS distrusted and despised Angel. The reasons for

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Elements of Destruction: A Trilogy by a. dean PART ONE: Silence The wind hurls a plastic bag against the living room window and Xander jumps. It�s really picking up out there. The chilly autumn breeze is a bit un-seasonal for Sunnydale, but not unheard of. For all he knows, this could be the calling card of the Scooby Gang’s next great and horrible foe, Mr. Freeze, a slimy octopus

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PART TWO: Darkness The wind is pummeling the living room window, rattling a loose shingle on the roof. The quarter moon peeks from behind fast-moving clouds, then disappears again. “What the hell does that mean?” “What? Giles’ little vampire books didn’t mention this? Probably didn’t. How many members of the Council have sucked vampire cock and lived to tell about it?” A

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PART THREE: Flames Xander is groggy and cold. He blinks and realizes he must have fallen asleep again because the room is flickering with firelight and Angelus isn’t beside him in the bed. He gets out of the bed and winces. He is sore all over. He feels as though he is the recent, barely-alive survivor of a train wreck. He finds his clothes folded neatly on an ancient chair by the bed,

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